these ocean eyes

this heart knows more years
than this body ever will.
~
sometimes, i am jes;
often, i am sad-eyes.
always, i am the ocean.

and i am (waiting),
but a coma might feel better.

~
did i say that i loathe you?
did i say that i want to,
leave it all behind?

lsv, you made me.
and every day, you break me.